2 posts tagged “tgif”

Or maybe not... it's still being debated. GayDays Disneyland started today. It's a "gay invasion" of the park - with people wearing red shirts to identify that they're part of the event. There are misc planned activities but it's mainly just a way to make the "Happiest Place On Earth" the "Gayest Place On Earth" for a few days... and to potentially freak out tourists.

Years ago, I used to go to a private gay night at Disneyland. It was usually held in winter, which meant you had to be part of the event to be in the park after dark (the park closes around sunset in winter). The party would only last 5 hrs but due to the smaller crowds (20k instead of 120k), you could usually get on more rides than in a standard 15-hr day in summer. But due to Disneyland taking a bigger & bigger cut of the ticket price, it eventually became more bother than fundraiser and was abandoned. It's really too bad. One of my fondest memories is of being in line for Bear Mountain and hearing the warm, welcoming, voices of the Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles - somewhere ahead of us - singing Disney tunes.

Anyhooo... original plans were for Miss Kitty's "amateur porn" party tonight and maybe the Kingdom Party (part of GayDays) tomorrow night. But I've had barely any sleep - roughly 3 hours (all in 10 to 15 min intervals) - so going out tonight no longer sounds like "da plan". Cezar emailed about GayDays and, since I haven't been to Disneyland in ages (I have no one to go with and DLand is definitely NOT a fun place to be single) - and I've never been when it was decorated for Halloween, it sounds fun.

But Cezar just found out it's not a private event and seems kinda freaked at the prospect of straights & families being there - so maybe he's going to change his mind. No worries either way.

Soooo... ANYONE WANT ANYTHING FROM DISNEYLAND?? Customized Mickey Mouse ears? A name tag? Disney Dollars? (I don't know if they even still do those.) Even if I don't go tomorrow, DLand is an easy stop for me so I can pick up stuff like that most anytime (just allow a week for me to get off my ass and go there - plus shipping time).

Unrelated to that:
Last night was my 2nd posing for Eban. I was oddly comfortable standing around totally naked - though there were still some funny/awkward parts to posing... and being posed.

He started with more sketching then moved on to a very rough draft for an oil painting. So far, so good (sorry, no pics - he didn't seem cool with the idea of me displaying unfinished work). But I later realized I might like something a bit more "edgy"... though I'm not sure what I mean by that. It just hit me that the painting he started is "nice" - the plain, spread vajayjay pose (no finger)... he refers to it as "a flower" (toooooo sappy for me!). It's really pretty and has lots of potential (it's still just draft)... but "nice" and "really pretty" aren't my personality... I'm into shock value. Not excessive shock value - but doing things that are 1 step beyond other's limits. Somehow, the simple vajayjay pose doesn't feel like that "one step beyond" [insert Madness tune in your head.... HERE]. I'm torn... it's his artwork and his choice - plus I really don't want to get myself into something "too" edgy (I don't know where that line is) but I also feel like I want more of my personality in it. I guess I should to talk to Eban and see how he feels.

No sexual overtures this time - should I be insulted?!? (kidding!!) i'm pretty sure he read my blog entry from last time so that might have something to do with it. (or maybe not)

I'm really attracted to the abstract quality of Eban's brush cleaning cloths. I want to cut out little 2x2" squares and frame them. Some of the colors and patterns are really nice. It make me think of my old artwork so when I got home I pulled out the samples I saved. I only remembered 1 abstract piece (which I either didn't find or completely redesigned in my head over the years) and my "corporate art" - powerpoint presentations, party invites, fliers, funeral programs - very generic stuff (mostly text & scans). But I found some freehand Christmas cards, a space scene, a couple abstracts I don't remember (and didn't like), the one and only time I drew an eye that looked fairly realistic, and a few other pieces. Yes, Haze, I'll scan and post them.

Happy Epiphany:
While wide awake all night (coffee at 10p was probably not the smartest thing I've done lately - but it was so guuuud!), I thought about how a part of "Harold & Maude" has been repeating in my brain. The part where Maude tells Harold to go out and live, otherwise "you've got nothing to talk about in the locker room." Here's the exact quote:

Maude: A lot of people enjoy being dead. But they are not dead, really. They're just backing away from life. *Reach* out. Take a *chance*. Get *hurt* even. But play as well as you can. Go team, go! Give me an L. Give me an I. Give me a V. Give me an E. L-I-V-E. LIVE! Otherwise, you got nothing to talk about in the locker room.

Anyhoo... it was cool to remember because ever since I saw the film, I've hoped to someday be just like the character Maude. A few times now, I've watched the film and thought "omg - I do that!" and thought it was cool. Last night, thinking of the quote above, it dawned on me that my current explanation for why I wanted to pose for Eban ("Life is all about experiences - so you need to rack up all you can") falls into Maude's philosophy.

But even cooler, I remembered that Maude POSES NUDE for an ice sculpture by Glaucus. And, when Harold spots her, she later asks "Do you disapprove?" - which reminds me of how I keep going around telling everyone about posing for the painting - for the shock value and reactions.

So, the happy epiphany is that I seem to be continuing to make progress in my hope to grow old vivaciously. Sometimes when I think of that, I remember working in a gay bar when 2 senior citizen couples came in, dressed to the nines. I instantly decided I'm going to do something like that someday. In the gay community, I've been everybody's sister & everybody's fake girlfriend... someday I want to be "everybody's grandma"... drinking at the bar, out on the dancefloor, dressed in my evening wear and (fake-)fur stole, acting 21 again.

But enough about me. How's everyone else's Friday going?

But the Sony parts drama meant I got to work an hour late (when I was planning to be 2 hrs early). And I've now wasted 3 more hours.

I have about 9 hrs of test tables staring at me. Not a problem if I had actually started working on them when I got here but I'm not optimistic about magically completing them in 4 hours. Anything later than 4 hrs from now (9p) makes driving to LA pretty much pointless (wouldn't get there till after midnight). I can't think of anywhere closer to go tonight - at least not anywhere worth the bother.

If I get out of work by 10p, I could drive straight up to LA and make it by 11 or 11:30 (depends on freeway construction closures). That would be fine. But, still... not likely. I shouldn't get my hopes up.

Arrrggghhh.

No one to blame but myself. DAMN!

**update, 3 hrs later**

The Gawds must be smiling on me tonight. The laser I was supposed to use for testing died as soon as I started. Troubleshooting it left only enough time to do a 4hr table, which I completed in 3 hrs and was tied to so many trouble reports that it credited for 18 hrs of work.

And I found 3 new problems - which means repeating all the tests again but is still good because my job is to find the problems.

I should be out of the office by 9pm - so I can still go out if I want. I'm kinda wavering on that now. But it's all the more reason I need to get out. It should be a slow night at Miss Kitty's, which sounds just right, and I gotz to see if I can find my missing mojo!!