3 posts tagged “fatigue”
Ahhh... another long weekend of cancelled plans due to fatigue. And now breathing problems and lots of joint pain (probably an allergic reaction to something).
Thanks to everyone for your thoughts on the fatigue. I've been taking vitamin supplements, which seemed to help for a week or two but suddenly stopped last week - just after the allergy-type symptoms appeared. I've researched anemia (did you know there's also a "B-12 deficiency anemia"?) which linked me to hypothyrodism. I have about 1/2 the symptoms for that (which means I also do NOT have 1/2 the symptoms for it). I've considered everything from the weather to maybe needing a new bed to mono to cancer (thanks for that one, WebMD). I dunno what's up but I'm finally giving in and going to schedule yet another full round of blood work - probably this week. I doubt it will tell us anything but I've got to do something proactive before I lose my mind.
I ended up skipping the drag Tupperware party Sat night. Instead, I watched "Dreamland" on dvd. I thought the trailer was more "eerily romantic" than the movie (mainly because it looked like one of those films where there's little talking and lots of staring - but it wasn't). But I still really liked it. I also realized I'm hyper-hormonal cause at the happy part of the film I burst into tears (a fantasy vs reality thing - cause I REALLY don't like being reminded that my fantasies are not my reality).
I almost skipped workout today - my exact 1-yr anniversary of doing S Factor (which is a HUGE milestone for me!). Surprisingly, I not only drug my tired ass there - but actually made it on time! Because most of the teachers went to Vegas for the weekend, Crystal's class came into our room (much larger than their room) for a combined instruction. That normally wouldn't be a problem but there were also a lot of makeups today - so our normal 3-6 person class was suddenly 13 or 14.
I've tried Crystal's class before and enjoyed it but today I HATED every last thing about it - especially her music (70s, ala: "Brick House", and HipHop. Double barf!). Add in my exhaustion, and a sizable dose of PMS, and things didn't go well. Fortunately, I had warned her ahead of time that I wasn't feeling very good. I barely did any of the warm-up (too hot, couldn't breathe, hated the music, couldn't hear her instructions, and hated the moves) then I developed a HUGE attitude problem during the "freestyle" section (which I sat out) as I saw all of Crystal's students hogging the poles and all of my class' students walking out for "a water break". When it came time for pole work and I realized that (once again) my sorry fat ass wasn't going to come close to doing any of the moves, I was going to feel like a retard because there were so many Level 5 students in the class who were spinning like pros, I really just wanted to take a nap, and I had been saying "FUCK THIS" to myself for well over 20 minutes... I grabbed my bag and left (still saying FUCK THIS!). Happy Anniversary to me. (Did I mention being hormonal?!?)
I picked up my freebie tix for the She Wants Revenge concert next Sat. As I expected, they're sucky seats (I think on the lawn). But, hey, free contest tix are free contest tix! Now to see if I can find anyone who wants them. They include free admin to the fair - on a Saturday - so maybe that will appeal to someone.
Back at home, I took the cats out front for a bit (Boo likes it to go out front but is only allowed there if I'm with her - to make sure she stays out of the street and doesn't get herself into any trouble) and I saw Jesus for the first time since our "date" from hell. I didn't get close enough for conversion. (ps: Yes, CupCate, I saw Jesus. Halleluhah!)
Tonight I watched "Kinky Boots", which I really enjoyed... except that the lead actor looks like Conan O'Brien to the point of distraction.
Tomorrow starts the rat race all over again. I swear, perm work is killing me. How do you people live like this - day after day after day of the same stupid shit? Financial stability is all well and good - but at what price?
[note: Stacy is currently in the middle of her 2 day Avon Walk for Breast Cancer - which she is moblogging as she can. Don't forget to donate!!]
Almost didn't make it to Moshi's follow up appt today cause my fatigue is back. It hit me hard yesterday. I thought I could bust through it but after minorly cleaning the house last night, I was exhausted and went to bed - torn between wanting a booty call and wanting to be left alone. Much to my surprise, I was left alone.
I woke up around 11 and had a difficult time convincing myself to actually get out of bed so Moshi would make his 2pm vet appt. Dr. Evans, who I think is probably one of the top practicing feline vets in the country (vs researchers etc) said Moshi's wounds are now healing up just fine and it's okay to let him outside on a regular basis. She laughed a lot at the story of the "communication problem" between Moshi & I two nights ago and stated what I already knew - peeing on my bed was Moshi's way of asserting dominance over the house. Screaming and throwing a fit was my way of quickly taking it back. Mosh was terrifed at the vet but is now happily resting in the shade in the backyard. He'll probably take off for his nightly prowl of the neighborhood within the next hour or so.
It's nearly 5:30p now and I'm supposed to be at the Drag Tupperware Party/Show at 6:30p. I can't decide whether or not to go.
Part of me is saying, "Go for it! It's fun!! It's not too far away. There will be lots of sexy gay guys to talk with. You'll have a blast and still be home by 9. If you don't want to primp & preen, you don't have to - it's okay to go looking 'normal'. It's the only opp to see it this year. You can sleep later."
The fatigued part of me is saying, "Skip it. You saw it last year. Sure, it will be different - but not drastically so. No one will miss you. You aren't going to buy any Tupperware anyway. It's being held in a bar and, if you have a good time, you'll probably end up drinking too much and having to stay late in order to sober up to drive. Just chill at home. You know you need to dye your hair anyway. Doesn't a nap sound GOOD?"
I don't know which side is going to win - right now, napping is a heavy favorite. I wish the party was tomorrow night (Sunday). That would be totally easier for my schedule.
What the hell is up with this dang exhaustion? Since starting the iron supplements, I was doing really well. Till Friday. Then, even with taking a full prescrip amphetimine pill (previously, I've usually taken only 1/2) I could barely keep my eyes open from about 4pm on.
And my 7-eleven is still a 7-eleven. No Kwik-E-Mart conversion after all. damnit.
Soy un perdedor.
Moshi isn't any worse but he also isn't any better. You can see the mondo-lump on the left (his right) in the blurry pics.
So tomorrow will require waking up early and heading in to the vet to find out what's wrong and pray that it's something minor. Tonight I was using a feather toy to play with the cats and noticed he doesn't want to open his mouth very wide - so it's affecting his jaw (go figure, huh?.. since it's centered right over the jaw joint).
I'm feeling guilty because I remember us smacking into each other on the bed Thurs night... I turned over and my foot smacked into an unknown part of him. I'm all a-feared that I unknowingly kicked him in the face and broke his jaw or something. He didn't cry or anything... but, then, he never does (unless he wants to know where I am - which is totally cute). I didn't see him Fri morn (I open the door for the cats then go right back to bed) so I don't know if it was swollen then or if it happened while I was at work.
But it's a wasp bite and going to heal just fine with a little time. Right?
In other news:
I'm still dealing with the fatigue. After a good night's sleep last night, my mind was refreshed but my body felt like I'd never been to bed. I figured trying to workout would be stupid - a high likelihood for injury - so I called out. I spent a little bit of time tanning in the backyard, then debating about a nap, till I finally dragged myself out for a pedicure. You know you're tired when the thought of sitting in a car to go sit in a massage chair for an hour sounds exhausting!
I thought about my diet as of late, how I'm still feeling exhausted despite the prescription speed (I don't take it often cause although it revs up my brain there just doesn't seem to be any physical energy to fire off), that the RedCross has always labeled me borderline anemic (though blood tests always come back fine), and that my new vitamins don't contain iron - and decided to pick up some supplements. We'll see if they have any effect. If not, I guess I'll do another round of blood tests.
In still other news:
I watched Almodovar's "Volver" tonight and LOVED it. I think it's some of his best work. Not completely like his other stuff - but not unlike it either. And the previews on the DVD were ALL for stuff I thought looked good and am about to add to my Netflix queue (though I've already seen everything that's released and can only add the others as "save"). I'm particularly interested in Angel-A from Luc Penson ("The Fifth Element" & "The Professional", both of which I LOVE). And even though I'm not a big fan of Beatles music, "Across the Universe" looks interesting.
In final news:
Cirque announced that it's newest show, Kooza is coming to San Fran and San Jose soon... but didn't announce dates yet. I'll be buying a ticket & scheduling my flight as soon as that info comes out. And Corteo's run in SoCal has been extended to Dec 23 (starts in August!) - so I'm thinking of buying a 3rd ticket to that as a holiday thing. But maybe I'll wait for more info on Kooza first.
And now I'm off to glance at neighbors and maybe post a few comments before I go to bed. A thousand apologies for not being a good neighbor and keeping up on everyone's gossip. I'll try to catch up soon.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to my IRL friend, Jeffie-Jeff!! (I didn't realize how much I miss you till I felt the huge grin on my face while listening to your message.)
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