1,000 places at once

That's the state of my mind. Here comes a partial data dump.

• I'm SICK of HDTV. My living room TV, once again, isn't getting any signals without random digitizing and signal loss (I have "rabbit ears" antennae, not cable or satellite). This could be a good thing as one of my 2009 resolutions ToDo items is "less TV; more music". (I almost never listen to music at home. I don't know why.)
  

• As much as no longer feeling special has caused me not to be too concerned about seeing C again, I still want him to show up so I feel wanted. I find that I've been spending every night waiting to see if I'll get a surprise visit, even though I know I won't. When I glance at the clock, instead of the time I see, "NO ONE WANTS YOU. Even stellar sex wasn't enough to keep the one person who was interested in you coming back." It's insanity. I know that logically. But emotionally? Whole different matter! Rejection is a bitch!!
  

• I had an awesome (almost-)sex dream about Alan Little (long lost love) this morning. He was initially reluctant but my superior skills quickly won him over. GOOD dream. ;-P
  

• I was feeling extremely icky yesterday. Doing much better today. Another 2009 ToDo: Get GI health DIAGNOSED AND TREATED!

• I was super gung ho about seeing the Rose Parade floats, till I got on the freeway Thurs night (to go see The Party). The second I hit the road, all interest in floats died - too long of a drive, too many people, too early in the day; too, too, too!!.

• I was going to check out the Aquarium of the Pacific yesterday but skipped it due to feeling icky. I plan to try this evening - $10 admission after 5pm (though parking will probably be $10, or more. Stupid when it's only 2.5 miles from my home - but there's no public transit and it isn't a safe area to walk).

• I'd kind of like to go out tonight but can't think of anywhere worth the effort. There's the fat girls' nightclub in Costa Mesa - but I don't think that's what I want tonight. Maybe Puka bar. Probably stay home.

• I resume workouts tomorrow. Gawd help me - I've been a slug for 3 weeks and besides being physically unprepared, I'm also mentally unprepared - especially for a full 2-hr class... with other students. Oh well.

• I might take a burlesque class at Siren Dance on Wed nights. It starts this week so I need to make up my mind (and if it's a yes, figure out funding) ASAP. Working out 2-3 nights a week is another 2009 ToDo. I still have to check out the free Pilates classes and see if I can work classes (not privates) at Nicole's studio into my schedule.
  

• I'm gonna get screwed on taxes this year due to changing my withholdings (based on advice from my accountant - but I think I screwed up what he told me to do) and having about zero deductions (I barely gave to charity; didn't do any consulting... don't have much to write off). That's going to F up my "budget" for the whole year. So nice to be worried about an entire year's worth of budget on the 3rd day of the year. Which reminds me - another 2009 ToDo: 10% of income to charity!
  

• I've fallen in lust with a mission style cd/dvd storage unit (it's soooo purty) but it's $300 and I can't figure out a way to justify the purchase... there are so many practical ways to spend that money (which I don't have anyway).
  

• I still haven't vacuumed. Or put away the clean clothes from last week & the week before. The clothes will get done tonight or tomorrow. But the vacuuming? You can't make me!! Another 2009 ToDo: HIRE A HOUSEKEEPER!
  

• I'm cold. And hungry. I'm gonna shower and dress and drive over to the Aquarium.